The Trouble Is How To Live

in a female body in a world
where male is the default,
where man is who you are
measured up by, pressed to,
grinding against.

The trouble is how to exist
in a body of curved language
in a world of lines,
how to flow and feel and crawl,
as the body yearns to do.

The trouble is how to exist
as bilingual without losing your mother tongue,
how to speak your father’s language
without speaking the language of his wars
against your body, the canvas body.

Our troubles are these wild zones,
which are also our salvations — the x spaces.

(photograph by Brittney Lewis, originally written March 2015)

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